emotionally drained.
saying those words was
harder than i had thought.
cant even bring myself to
say those words even if
i tried.unless out of insincerity.
im so tired of hiding.
im so tired of fighting.
tired frm everything.
physically.im fine.
mentally.im confused.
emotionally.insecured.
u said u care.
bt i begin to question it.
do u really care?
or were u making it up?
i dunnoe.
to believe.
or not to believe.
ure buzy wif werk.
i'd understand.
bt no smses/calls.
i cudnt understand.
juz a simple sms.
to show u care.
bt nothing.
i waited.n waited.
every single hr.
hoping for something.
bt nothing.
it hurts me.
i was being ignored.
expect me to call/sms u?
u can forget abt it.
no commitment to me.
no commitment for you.
dont expect me to put in
effort in everything.
if you cant even do
something simple
such as sending an sms.
y should i do the same?
do i always hve to make
the first move?
was i expected to put in
effort first all the time?
it seems unfair to me.
we're suppose to be
equally committed.
i dont see y i should
always be the one to
send u an sms/call u.
cant u take the initiative
to do so?
if i didnt msg/call u.
u wouldnt even bother
to msg/call me.
that saddens me.
u always utter words.
words that i hold onto.
yet.dissapointment.
dont let me lose hope.
lose our relationship.
i know you're trying.
bt i cant help wondering.
where are we heading?
i cant help it if jealousy
existed in me.
it wasnt my fault that
i was angry with you.
you should hve known
your boundaries.
(still hurt...)
